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Friday, October 29, 2004
CAMP.. yeahz.. haha..
fun n fun n more fun.. haha..
oso can put my mind at others thingz.. haha..
hmm.. wat else.. heeez..
ohz yahz..
i will nt b online at all till sundae bahz.. heeez..
coz.. camp where got com..?
haha....
hmm.. oso.. finally go back sch after two weekz.. haha
coz.. i workin mahz.. heeez...
so.. not in sch.. haha.,..
lame hor.. haha..
okok lor.. todae.. finally can go online ..
do friendster...
go msn..
n oso blog.. heeeez..
hmm.. er... so .. wat else.. haiz
i guess there is not much excitement in my life at all..
haiz.. haha.. sooo..
BORING.. haiz.. butz..
it is my life..
haha..
at least i hav my friends.. sumwhere... :P..
haha....
although i may not hav any chance wif my miss right..
haha.. but.. at least i noe.. she will b out there sum where.. haha.. .
hmm.. yahz lahz... crap tok lahz.. no point lahz..
haha.. hmm.. nth to do le.. hmm..
huh? wat ? are you wondering y m i still here..? when there is camp.. hmm..
haha... coz.. i noe free mahz.. haha.. no lahz
camp start at 130am mahz..
haha.. hmm.. now onli 1242nn mahz...
haha.. heeez... .. ... ..
haha.. k lahz.. getting late liaoz.. haha..
byz.. heeez.. haha.. cya on sundae.. haha... heeez
cya (",)(,")..
last written in 12:44 PM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Haiz.. sianz.. not good lor..
although workin can help me acheive my goals..
but is it worth it ..?
in the first place.. i have never wondered
tat i will work at my sis company...
but.. i did.. haiz..
now my time is tied up.. and ..
wat worse is tat...
I MISS MY CAMPING TRIP WITH MY FRIENDS.. ARGHHH.....
haiz..
not worth... ..
buddies.. if u c tis..
i m truely sorrie for not turning up for the camp.. sorrie..
sob sob.. haiz...
... ... now no mood in continuing to work.. sianz..
haiz.. but got reputation to keep mahz... haiz
boh bianz..
muz continue work at least a month.. haiz..
dun care man.. when get month pay .. i go play billard liaoz..
kuan feng.. make urself free.. hahaa..
haiz.. den.. go out with others friends.. heez...
muz spend the money worthwhile.. heez..
haiz... lately..
i notice,..
i have change???
welll.. all.. i noe is tat i dun feel rite...
i dun feel ... myself lor... haiz..
lookin back at my past entries...
those parts bout "her"..
... does not like my doing lei..
plz... if "her" saw tis.. plz ..
dun care wat my past entries is...
ok..?.. i was tokin rubbish.. heeez...
ok.. now i feel better... hmm...
haiz... tis time round dunnoe when can blog again ..?
after tis entry..
haiz.. ... my time all mess up le...
all becoz of my work.. haiz..
streessss lei.... . ..... . haiz...
hmm.. argh.,,, i wanna buy hp...
haiz... wat shld i buy lei..?
hmm.. n-gage QD... or nokia 6230?
hmm.. ... .... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... .. ... ..
haiz.. dun care lahz.. haiz.. er.. er..
gotta go le... mum scoldin le..
haiz... bill high wat...
haiz... till next time..
slp well... nitez....
last written in 11:47 PM
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
sorrie lahz.. for those whu is in need of my boring entries to slp..
me hav begin workin le... as i hav sae..
heeez.. so if u nv c anychanges,
well, it is bcoz tat i need sum beauty slp.. heez..
hmm.. er.. so.. wat to update u lei..?
ohz.. i went on an overseaz trip to bintan..
Angsana bintan restort spa..
damm... good de place..
but the service still okok lor.. coz of..
it is still new mahz... and they dun reali noe their crowd over there..
but worst is tat their food cum veri veri slow...
although it is good lahz..
n oso their food n stuffz..
is priced at us$ lei.. dam expensive lor...
.. hmm.. wat else lei..? nt much lor..
xcept tat.. work i quite hard...
muz go places to pass tingz... here n there..
haiz... haiz..
but 1 good ting... can take taix.. hahaha
heeez
hmm.. nt much lahz.. but at east is sum ting i never try b4...??
hahaha.. i m after new expreinces mahz.. heez...
hmm.. okoko.. wat else.. er..
ohz.. i saw my x-colleage...
at paya lebar summore...
fated huh..???
hahahaha... heez..
but reali lor.. suddenly saw her.. scare me lei.. haha..
hm.. but frm her there i can find out more bout my otherz friends frm juice asia.. heez...
hm.. i hope soon i can meet up with them all .. heez. so as nt 2 lose touch... haha
but.. also... i muz work harder oso...
to earn more to spend.. wahahaha... heez
hopefully by nov can spend money liaoz.. heeez..
first on my elder sis...
den givesum to my mum..
therest.. wahaha...
c how much first den plan.. heez..
wahahaha.. party time is nt far.. wahahaha.. heeez
hmmm.. wat else..??
arhz... dye hair.. hmm..
nv try b4.. haha
but wat colour lei..?
hmm.. cant decide.. haha
i tink....
......
my hair natural colour better..
heeez
.... hahaha,... okokok.. wat else b4 i slp..?
sum ting bout her...???
liddat lor.. haiz..
no touch mahz.. haha
i nv talk to her oso... heeez
but... ... ... .....
she got remember me.. heeez,,,
as in tat night... in the swimming pool.. haha
how we... ... ....
play,...
touch,... and throw u down into the pool .,.. hhahahaha.
tickle tickle.. hahah.. i remember.. haha... i hope u may accept me...
and give me a chance.. heez... if u happen to read my blog n tis particular entry lahz...
hmm.. m i tat bad..?
i dun tink so lei..!
den y..? u muz give me and open-ended ans..??
haiz.. hopefully .. u will b free when..
i ask u out..???
hmm.. i muz carefully plan.. haha.. kk.. lahz..
stop tokin to myself liaoz..
er... nth much to b said.. except tat i will try to cum online n update asap... n as freuqent... heez
byz.. tata.. (",)(,")..
last written in 1:28 AM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
finally lahz..
yahoooooooooooooooo...
examz.. N-level.. ALL over.. haha
no more studying required untill.. er..?
2,3 monthz later.. but whu cares..!!!
right..???
haha.. heeeeeez.. buit reali happi..
coz.. i m free..
free to do wat i please.. hahaa
haiz.. hmm.. although exam r over.. but i m nt blogging from home..
nooo..
i m bloggin from my friend home right now.. wahahaha..
exam over muz relax watz.. heez.. :P
orelse remain as stress as before exam arhz..?
siaoz.. waste my mood..
can b happy dun wan to b happy..? haiz
stupid way of treating urself.. i tink lahz..
hmm.. aiyo.. me now hungry.. but... haiz..
they all slp le..
left onli me sia.. haiz..
den juz now edit friendster profile.. n write a few testis..
hehe.. now at 3.40am...
i find myself.. alone.. hungry.. but happy.. hahaha
heeez.. no point upsetting myself right..?
haha.. kk lahz.. i noe it is useless repeating.. but plz
bear wif me.. haha.. i m suppose to b boring mahz.. haha..
juz jokin lahz,,
hm.. todae.. after examz.. i rush back home..
as i m requried to extend my passport expiry date..
as i got work.. tis sat..
at bintan.. malaysia.. heez..
.. first time off singapore land lei.. a bit nervous... haha
aiya.. muz understand mahz..
me.. nv.. NV.. go away from singapore lei..
but tis sat.. it will happen.. haha
hmm.. kk.. after extending the expiry date..
i went back home..
waiting for 4pm to go out wif friends..
but i fell aslp.. n i woke up around.. 424pm liddat..
waeeeeee.... late..haiz.. sorrry guyz..
haha.. den now.. here i m after been to changi airport..
back to bishan to play bball till 12mn..
to my friend home here at bishan.. heeez..
aiya.. den.. act aslp.. but actually nv slp.. so as to acheive..
peace.., quietness, and freedom.. haha..
hmm.,. there is a irony..
coz.. i juz remembered,..
tml.. after wakin up at 5am(if i slp 2nite tat is)
i will have to go to sch..
to find a junior to give him..
my late payment for prefectz probation camp.. heeez..
den.. after tat.. i m to go home.. freshen up..
go to work wif my sis at 820am.. haiz..
which is barely a few hours away..
but i m not aslp yet..
however.. those whu r free tml..
r aslp.. haha.. haiz..
such irony sia..
heez..
hm.. many readers out there..
r u all interested in wanting to know whu i like..???
haha.. ..
kk.. i will give a clue... .. .. .. . . .. . .. . ... . .. .. . .. .
.. .. . .. she .. .. is... . .. . .. .. . .a. .. . . GAL..!!!
hahaha... haiz.. haha..
no lahz.. haha... juz kiddin.. heez..
hm.. she is same age as me.. ..
in the same sch.. .. .. ...
and... ...... ... she is a gal.. haha...
heez,, i cant help it.. haha..
no lahz.. but the truth is..
i cant bear to tell u all. haiz..
it had been a nice secret.. haha
haha.. hmm.. i will tink about it.. haha..
hmm... er....er... e.r..
okok.. i will tell u alll...
...
...
...
..
when i hav gone a real date wif her..
to the movies perhabz?.. haha
c lahz.. i tink .. when my N-level result is revealed..
den i tok about askin her out.. haha.. heeez..
so.. for now.. slp tight.. heeez.. cya tml nite!..
cya.. nitez.. (",)(,")
last written in 3:23 AM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
Hiz.. sorry tat i haven being updating tis blog for hmm.. omost 2 weeks liaoz..
reali sorry.. but plz
understand tat in my previous post..
i m quite buzy fretting over my N-levelz..
haiz.. thest past week has being quite an experience ..
as tis examination determines whether i can stay on
for sec 5.. O-levels next year..
haiz.. but whenever i tink of my own performance in the N-levelz..
i cant help tinkin tat i m in a veri not good situation ..
as i have indeed done badly for these.. haiz...
i now hav a veri slim chance of ongoing to sec 5..
so to tis i leave all to fate..
and i resign myself to wat ever my future holds..
but i will fight.. yes i will
i will not sit there and let myself rot if my future is no good..
i will try to strive on..
for better results for myself..
and for my love..
sadly.. my love iszt wif me..
as she , herslf may not even realize how much i hav loved her..
and how much tat i still love her..
but there is no wae she is goin to know..
as i will not try n risk our friendship tat we have between us..
and so.. let c if we r destined to b together or ..
juz as friends.. will b fine with me..
haiz.. as i saw the cartoon todae..
i learned a new pharse..
"it sucks to b me .. .. "
however.. on an lighter n happier tone..
i my N-levels is cumin to an close..
and soon.. i will be able to work..
to earn sum cash for leisure, savings, chalet, and of coz, gathering wif cousins, old sch mates, friends, n pals..
and in tis..
an new chapter unfolds..
haha... heeez..
hmm.. but lets us c wat my boring life holds for me...
for the past week ..
i have being unable to focus on my own studies..
as i was in constant tiredness...
tat plauge myself.. .. haiz..
there is no will to study at all.. although i did forced my self
into memorizing sum notes.. into my veri spacous but weak mind..
haha,, and indeed more friends is better.. as those whu studied wif me..
i thank them.. for they help alot in recovering much focus on subjectz..
but often.. i drew them out of those veri studious moment,, haha..
so sorry.. haha.. haiz..
haiz.. hmm.. wat else is there..?
not much aready.. except tat many whu glance through my post..
will b wondering now ..
whu is my love..?
well.. tat is for me to noe n for u to guess.. haha
but watever it is.. the chances of us becomin together..
has grown into astromical persentage..
tat shows a bend towards the negative .. haiz..
which is to sae..
i have no chance wat so ever to b wif her.. haiz..
but often i wonder...
if the knowlege is to b reveled to her..?
wat will becum of me..?
i often toy wif tis idea.. but ..
i indeed dare not risk our frindship..
i have let her known in the past..
but i lied to her tat i dun reali care a button bout her..
which is a lie.. haiz... despite being unhappy... i m sinful 2..
haiz.. sad case lahz.. but ..
whu cares..?
rite...?.. haiz...
onli me.. and mayb sum of my best pals .. haiz..
haha.. kk lahz.. dun bore u all so much..
i tink i muz set a limit.. haha.. for those whu tink tat i muz set a limit...
add an comment to tis paticular post... kk..?
haha.. heeez.. cya tml...
sundae leiz.. haha.. byz..
(",)(,")
("<)(>")
nitez..
benz signing off...
last written in 10:32 PM
Saturday, October 02, 2004
wah.. todae.. wake up at 6.54 when i slp at 10pm+ last nite..
haiz.. y iszt tat i slp early, wake up late..? hmm..
curious indeed.. haha
.. anywae.. todae.. get back report book.. heeez
sianz.. fail 4.. haiz..
hmm.. wat else.. oh ya.. we run away during recess juz..
u noe wat..?
watch resident evil.. sianz
dam.. bloody disgusting lorhz..
haiz.. dunnoe.. y they wan to watch.. haha
urgh.. haiz.. but the ending...
quite bizzrad.. hmm..
i tink there is resident evil 3 .. hehe
hmm.....
i m.. studyin physic while bloggin... heeez
pro rite.. haha
hmm.. but.. i m reali studyin lahz..
hmm.. "heat is needed....blahz.. blahz... blahz.. physic stuff.. "
sian lahz.. haiz..
i prefer study chemistry.. hehe..
easier.. to understand.. haiz..
physicz.. i dun even noe a ting.. haiz..
but i will try my best.. heez..
sian.. lin min take my NIRC..
or iszt pei xuan..? hmm
heck care lahz.. haha.. hmm..
i hope i better get back.. b4 my mum wan it.. or i need it..
mondae.. exam le.. i need it lei.. haiz.. sianz.. hmm..
haiz.. lin min is oso a danerous gal juz like pei xuan. haiz
dam.. danerous with them around.. haha..
hmm.. aiyo. soo late le.. hmm.
do u tink i can make it ?
dun slp.. study physic all the wae to morning .. den..
go out.. find junrong..
c if he ok anot..
den.. take kf keys from him... go find.. kf..
den after tat.. go find.. huimin,kel, kok guan.. they all
at bishan there to study.. heeez
chiong ar.. haha.. no mercy..
muz go up to sec 5.. and c if weric got go up anot.. haha
but personnally.. i dun tink soooo.. hahaha
m i bad..? nvm..
coz.. i like it.. wahahaha
heeez.. hmm.. better dun c him.. haha.. hmm.. kk..
gtg le,, nitez.. study all the wae friends.. heeez..
cya (,")(",)
last written in 3:02 AM
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8mths has passed..
i had juz finish BMT
on the 19 june i noe my actual posting..
after tat.. i will b regular le..
wondering if wat happen if i had no time for u..?
wondering if will i be send overseas.. ?
wondering on such makes me stress sometimes..
coz i dun like it if i had no time for u..
but if i kena send overseas..
i will have alot of money..
to marry u..
i tink when the times comes then sae bahx..
haha..
coz for now i wan to spend time wif u till my broadleave finishes
i luv u
si~ling