Saturday, October 09, 2004
Hiz.. sorry tat i haven being updating tis blog for hmm.. omost 2 weeks liaoz..
reali sorry.. but plz
understand tat in my previous post..
i m quite buzy fretting over my N-levelz..
haiz.. thest past week has being quite an experience ..
as tis examination determines whether i can stay on
for sec 5.. O-levels next year..
haiz.. but whenever i tink of my own performance in the N-levelz..
i cant help tinkin tat i m in a veri not good situation ..
as i have indeed done badly for these.. haiz...
i now hav a veri slim chance of ongoing to sec 5..
so to tis i leave all to fate..
and i resign myself to wat ever my future holds..
but i will fight.. yes i will
i will not sit there and let myself rot if my future is no good..
i will try to strive on..
for better results for myself..
and for my love..
sadly.. my love iszt wif me..
as she , herslf may not even realize how much i hav loved her..
and how much tat i still love her..
but there is no wae she is goin to know..
as i will not try n risk our friendship tat we have between us..
and so.. let c if we r destined to b together or ..
juz as friends.. will b fine with me..
haiz.. as i saw the cartoon todae..
i learned a new pharse..
"it sucks to b me .. .. "
however.. on an lighter n happier tone..
i my N-levels is cumin to an close..
and soon.. i will be able to work..
to earn sum cash for leisure, savings, chalet, and of coz, gathering wif cousins, old sch mates, friends, n pals..
and in tis..
an new chapter unfolds..
haha... heeez..
hmm.. but lets us c wat my boring life holds for me...
for the past week ..
i have being unable to focus on my own studies..
as i was in constant tiredness...
tat plauge myself.. .. haiz..
there is no will to study at all.. although i did forced my self
into memorizing sum notes.. into my veri spacous but weak mind..
haha,, and indeed more friends is better.. as those whu studied wif me..
i thank them.. for they help alot in recovering much focus on subjectz..
but often.. i drew them out of those veri studious moment,, haha..
so sorry.. haha.. haiz..
haiz.. hmm.. wat else is there..?
not much aready.. except tat many whu glance through my post..
will b wondering now ..
whu is my love..?
well.. tat is for me to noe n for u to guess.. haha
but watever it is.. the chances of us becomin together..
has grown into astromical persentage..
tat shows a bend towards the negative .. haiz..
which is to sae..
i have no chance wat so ever to b wif her.. haiz..
but often i wonder...
if the knowlege is to b reveled to her..?
wat will becum of me..?
i often toy wif tis idea.. but ..
i indeed dare not risk our frindship..
i have let her known in the past..
but i lied to her tat i dun reali care a button bout her..
which is a lie.. haiz... despite being unhappy... i m sinful 2..
haiz.. sad case lahz.. but ..
whu cares..?
rite...?.. haiz...
onli me.. and mayb sum of my best pals .. haiz..
haha.. kk lahz.. dun bore u all so much..
i tink i muz set a limit.. haha.. for those whu tink tat i muz set a limit...
add an comment to tis paticular post... kk..?
haha.. heeez.. cya tml...
sundae leiz.. haha.. byz..
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nitez..
benz signing off...
last written in 10:32 PM
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