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Tuesday, May 31, 2005
tuesdae....
morning...
wake up to meet my friend outside sch to play bassketball...
play till...
12.30pm...
den go sch bath...
change...
for muscial.. heez...
pon holidae classes...
haha...
shh...
haha.. musical...
.. did nth ...
for me lar..
onli help wif the trio wif their dance steps.. gheez...
but they s good.. how to hit them..?
as jon suggested..? diaoz.. haha...
hmm.. but oso a bit wasted.. coz..
did nth as my partner got work.. so nv cum...
... hmm... wat else...?
orhz yar...
after musical...
me go find my buddies at lido...
go watch the cartoon..
eh..
dunnoe how to spell the name.. haha...
onli know there got animals... heez...
haha....
veri cute...
i dun mind watching again..
too bad no money.. heez...
after tat...
really diaoz...
coz.. my friends revert back to their nite activites...
remind me hor blog..
nv...Nv..NV...
bring my future gf to these places where they frequent.. haha...
diaoz...
no lar...
i noe they wun do tat kind of tings to friend's gf.. haha...
but a bit unsafe.. haha...
safer abit better.. haha...
not tat i dun trust them.. ..
but IT IS.. veri hard to trust them.. diaoz...
heez... sianz...
juz jokin lar...
no harm...
heez...
reali muz go and...
save/earn money for my hp...
coz.. my current hp sux... diaoz...
arghz...
use a little bit.. hang on me...
or juz lag out...
wah lau..
my tis hp summore is black n white lei..
how can be so laggin as colour hp..? diaoz....
sianz.. lor...
okok .. nth to sae le.. nitez... bb...
cya all.. tmr...
last written in 12:39 AM
Monday, May 30, 2005
grief..
i nv known grief of losing a friend up to now...
sadness...
not my usual self lamenting....
...
my classmate...
has juz pass on...
in a manner.. i m unprepare for...
although he is not my closest friend...
but...
still a friend and classmate for 3 yrs is enough...
.....
....
mayb it is obivious tat it will come to tis to some...
but .. even though he is in coma b4 he leave us...
doesnt mean he doent hav a chance of surival...!
haiz....
argzh,,,
emptiness...
in a class....
in my heart...
haiz....
....
mayb he had leaves us contented..?
welll...
he had gone into coma doin wat he wants...
so i tink he is glad...
he didnt miss anyting....
i hope... death is not the stopper of life.. but
begining of another..
may he be in a better position then us nw..
.....
.....
ok... gotta move on...
....
ahem....
...
sianz...
todae chinese o level...
nearly late..
but i m not .. haha
juz nice on the dot.. heez....
so.... not much prob...
.. but onli tat.. for paper 1..
i forgot to bring my chinese dictionary in to examination hall..
sianz...
so paper 1 not much hope le..
haiz...
but still i did quite well.. i amazed even myself.. haha...
paper 2 lei...
haiz...
i did ..
excceeds my own expectation.. haha...
i tink i can at least pass... heez....
with listening comprehension...
den i can safely sae...
hmm....
... wat else...?
ohz...
tmr got rehearsal...
but goin to b lonesome tmr.. haiz...
miss pingpong...!!
haha..
she got ting on.. i tink..
so she cant cum..
hmm.. so i goin to do the learning on my own for both of us...
coz we doin dance in the song mahz...
hheeez...
interesting..?
well we will b airing our sch muscial during last week of july..
haiz...
so long rite...
well we gotta learn mahz...
so b patient lar.. haha....
hmm... tmr...
evening after rehearsal...
me goin out.. heez.. wif friends.. heez...
goin town.. heez...
but do wat..? i oso dunnoe.. haiz...
my friend sundar...
juz now intro me work at xpo...
i dae.. 10hrs...
40 dollars...
but is from 9june to 17june..
so abit regulaar...
so is a good ting..
heez...
but onli tat i muz miss work on 12june sun..
and alot of rehearsal...
about a week worth.. haiz...
i hope greg , kiat,jon,wunfu will understand.. heez...
i really nd the cash... sorri...
haiz..
kk gotta slp le.. nitez...
all... slp well...
lonesome...
feeling lonely.. dae by dae...
time passes.. as we grow old...
lonesome.. is wat we will feel ..
each dae.. after they move on...
sadness...
comes wif lonesome.. haiz...
boi... have the gal u like
makes u feel lonely..?
well.. u r not alone...
gal... r u lonely..?
wthout ur boi...
haiz...
life makes fun.. as usual..
last written in 11:28 PM
Sunday, May 29, 2005
arhz....
-elsa-
y u forget to lend me ur chinese handbook..!!!
haiz...
how to study liddat..?
hmm...
nvm lar...
chinese onli.. haha..
at least fail lor...
hahaha...
but not ur fault.. is mine fault...
coz if i m serious on studying chinese i wun 4get to get it frm u.. heez...
>>.<<"
times flies when u having fun
and makes u as drunk...
u wun remember ani important tings other than fun itself.. and the ppl in it.. heez...
so.. nvm ...
juz know tat we hav fun... haha
can areadi..
no need sae sorri coz..
wat happen happen areadi..
tmr... or rather later... me goin to work.. heez...
at clementi avenue 2 shopping centre.. haha...
...
ok... sammie..
i wun "ke lian ning myself le.. haha...
heeez...
todae rehaersal veri meaningful... coz...
we manged to go through alot of tingz...
haha...
block a few parts of scene...
haha...
and... nth to sae le...
goin to rest myself.. tmr goin to b a buzy dae... heez...
nite all...
slp tight...
cya all...
i hope to dream of u tonite..
but i wish for us..
to be happy oways...
no matter wat my heart
sae..
pls take no heed...
juz b my friend
and i m contented areadi..
i dun really expect u to know..
neither i wan u to noe..
...nitez...
last written in 1:18 AM
Friday, May 27, 2005
... fridae le.. haha..
anime last dae.. haha
cannot miss it.. haha..
ke lianz.. heez....
hmm.. ... .. ...
sianz...
todae last dae of sch..
get report book.. but...
i didnt get...
haiz.. ke lianz..
coz.. ...
me nv hand in sum reply slip on sum talks for parents...
haiz..
i lost the slip mahz..
not i want de.. haiz..
sianz...
haiz... ke lianz...
hmm... tmr got rehearsal.. heez...
can enjoy myself for awhile..
singing .. or rather listening them all sing.. haha..
they sing so nice.. not like me..
got no tone voice.. haiz...
haha...
heez....
hmm...
still 1030pm nia...
still got 30 mins more to anime.. haha...
i tink i write till.. hmm.. 1045pm den...
stop.. haha...
heez...
otherwise..
i no time or hav too much time
to kill... before the anime soon.. haha...
sianz..
feeling tired le.. but...
coz of dun wanna miss anime.. i stay up..
hmm...
i hope .. tmr i will not late.. haha...
heez... ke lianz.. ke lianz...
me so scared tat..
i will... b late again.. haiz...
haiz... sad...
hmm... oh yar...
elsa.. - i hope tat u tmr remember to
bring chinese handbook ..lend me.. haha...
otherwise.. i cant study in any case...
ke lianz.. haha...
... hmm.. oh yar...
huimin..
i m so sorri... lei..
sae go ur home but in the end nv.. haha...
sorri.. ke lian.. haha...
... nitez...
all... ...
slp tight...
cya.. haha...
last written in 10:45 PM
Thursday, May 26, 2005
sad.....
i feel sad...
y..?
ke lianz..
coz.. becoz...
scene four haven finish blockin..
... haiz... but.. i can smell. it...
haha.. we are close to finish blockin it..
cheerS!!!...
haha...
but.. the upcomin part is abit...
outta...
my ...
wish.. hahaha...
coz.. there got parts.. where i cant reali do with a straight face.. haha...
sad...
but...
i juz now...
after reaching home..
i decided...
heck all lar.. juz hav fun lor.. and.. do my part..
n belive in nth.. haha....
heez....
i cant wait for holidaes to begin.. haha...
coz... i got work.. yeah..
i m goin to get my bank bal back up...
haha..
so tat.. i could pay for my own bills.. haha...
yeahz..
and oso.. sch is endin le.. yeahz.. haha..
1 month no need c books.. haha...
... hmm...
i saw denson juz now ...
he workin at the golf course lei..
the billard there.. haha...
next time go there.. dun pay.. haha.. diaoz..
juz kiddin.. haha...
hmm... i tink we shld go n find him sumtimes.. mayb b4 our exam.. haha,...
relax a bit mahz.. haha....
but best is tat...
pool lei..
mayb shld ask him if got space for me to work mahz..? haha... go there work.. not bad lei..
haha... can play pool for free? haha.. diaoz.. haha...
can oso improve my skills.. so tat i will not b beaten by kel again...? haha..
juz kiddin.. haha...
seven dragonballs lei.. haha...
... hmm.. i tink i m goin to slp le.. haha.. coz is late le..
haha..
but actually i m not slpin so soon..
me waiting for 11pm to cum..
haha..
anime.. yeahz.. haha...
miss ping pong ar...
take things lightly hor..
haha... c u like veri stressout de lei.. haha...
dunnoe sae here got use mahz...
coz u mayb not everydae c my blog mahz.. haha...
but still.. i wan my friends to noe.. i got tink bout them de lei...
Val..
dun b so stress on urself...
especailly bout u n him..
relax.. abit.. and tings will b better...
it is not nice to feel tight at all times..
Qaiser...
u oso lei..
dun b so stress on ur self...
tis year cant get 1st never mind...
but.. at least u noe...
u did ur best..
the best ting around is tat never regret wat u hav done.. unless u didnt do it wif ur heart.. heezx...
where is ur heck care attiude..?
cumon and cheer up...
tings are not so gloom as they look.. heez...
heez...
kk.. nites all.. cya...
bb...
and cheers...
last written in 10:17 PM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
wednesdae...
the best dae of the week...
its the middle of a week...
but.. soo..?
well...
wednesdae ...
is oso the start of anime on art central frm 11pm to 12pm...
showing 2 anime... first is ... i dunnoe wat.. haha...
next is shaman king..
.. heez... i m gettin hook on anime le.. diaoz...
all. whu fault..?
kel lor.. haha
no lar.. not actually his fault.. haha...
coz.. is
i want to watch le mahz.. haha..
heez.. so is my fault at the botton line.. heez....
oh...
i juz remember...
i make sum minor changes to this blog...
haha...
not veri easy to spot.. but i did change the
"title" and the wording at the botton of the browers.. heez...
c.. i so smart..
haha.. diaoz.. juz being ...?haha..?
.... heez.. aniwae... todae is wednesdae.. so nice...
hahaha... i hope my form teacher dun noe i got blog.. haha...
coz if she c tis.. she goin to k i ll me.. haha...
coz.. i never go sch todae...
shhh....
coz.. i sianz of sch mahz..
haha...
me so bad rite..?
summore prefect lei...
so...
muz realli shh... haha...
... ai yar...
me stress lei...
o level next mon lei...
sian lor..
so muz understand my thoughts of not wanting to go sch...
heeez... haiz.. so .. liddat lor.. haha..
heez..... .....
tmr rehearsal... yeshz...
onli rehearsing scene 4....
sad... i still cant find my "charming" voice for my part.. haiz... sianz...
ke lianz.. heez...
but i got a bit of idea haha... heez..
but need to practice mahz.. haha....
hahaha... sianz.. haiz...
but.. onli hav general ide.. haiz.. sad.. haiz...
but never mind lar... haha...
i will get it sooner or later.. haha..
heez... i hav faith in myself.. heez...
not alot lar.. haiz...
hmm.. being mindfully single.. is so...
good .. haha...
although is abit boh liao at times.. heez..
but i seem to hav more time at my disposal lei.. haiz...
make me feel like abit... empty.. haiz...
but sumhow.. this kind of feeling allows me to b peaceful..
haha..
kk.. i gotta go le.. haiz...
sch.. cya tmr.. haha..
nitez..all..
bb...
last written in 8:59 PM
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
yoyo... i m shag...
meaning.. i m tired..
but still.. i make a point to write tis entry.. haha...
but.. still...
dunnoe... good anot.. haha..
sianz..
todae rehearsal veri shiong ar...
wah... haha... i hope tis is the hardest.. coz..
i really dun wan to go over the same... "experience" ...again....
NEVER!!!
but still.. we did hav fun... although most proberly at the expense of jonathan's temper...
opps...
sorri!!!
we r juz veri tired.. hope tat jon dun hav to shout again.. haha...
but y iszt tat i dun tink so..?
hmm....
haha...
oh..
yar...
i did my homework!!...
well.. musical de homework lar.. haha
but i m pround of myself oso... write about 5 pages of chinese.. lei.. haha..
surprise even myself.. haha...
hmm...
i amazed tat i can still amazed my self.. haha.. diaoz..
crapin again.. haha...
sianz.,.,,
thought bout changing my blogskin.. but i m still not sure wat to do.. haha.. heez...
i hav downloaded blogskin.. now is the prob ofput it in wif my entry.. and etc.. haha...
"and kiat...,
i know bout my blog being sux...
long long ago...
long long ago.. haha
so.. tat is y i m nt surprised at hearing tat frm u haha in my tagboard.. "
heez,,,.... ....
i m really tempted to ask for help frm VAl...
but....
i wanna do tis on my own...
orelse how m i goin to learn how to do html..?
haha... but still.. Val.. standby hor..!!!
if i ever need divine help... i will contact u.. hahha...
heez...
ur my saviour .... sooner or later.. haha
okokok.. i m toooo.. shag to continue..
i juz wanna drop aslp any moment.. haha....
and if i stay on anymore longer..
i will most likely to sprout nonsensce frm my typing as u can c my writing is ... omost..
canot b understand.. haha...
shag... arghz...........
abit more... arghz..
kk.. nitez all...
cya.. next time..?
haha... gogo..
sweet dreams..
ZzZzZz..zZZZ.....ZZZ
...ZZZ...ZZZZZ
ZZZZZZ.....
ZZZZZZZZZZZzzZZz
ZzzZZzZZzzzz
last written in 11:35 PM
Monday, May 23, 2005
...tis is second dae..
of being minfully single..
but...
as i m stressing it now..
there is not much different..
... haha,...
after lookin at sum blogs these few daes...
i discover sumting..
my blog.. sux...
haiz...
mayb i shld hire kiat's web mistress.., Val.. haha..
diaoz..
but i guess.. even she cant do much to my boring old blog.. haha.. heez..
...
hmm... things may not wat it seems..
dun b so negative lar..
miss ping pong..
oways look on the bright side no matter how dark tings look..
haha..
hav i side track? diaoz..
do not wonder..
do not ponder...
too much of this..
causes misunderstanding og matters...
ohz.. i realised.. i didnt add sumting to my previous post...
the reason for me wanting to grow mature.. is becoz..
i dun wan my parents to b so press for money to pay bills...
haiz.. i want to fend for myself coz...
i dun wan my parents to hav extra prob... haiz...
i guess.. too much of tis kind of tinkin causes me to forget
how much i enjoy being a kiddo.. haha...
as my friend, wee leong will sae...
"being a noob is better than a pro,
coz.. as a noob.. there ar oways areas to improve in
but once u r a pro.. there is no room for improvement.."
....
kk.. i gotta make adjustments to my blog...
so.. i will stop here...
cya ...
last written in 11:38 AM
Sunday, May 22, 2005
.. haiz..
yesterdae nite i 12 45mn liddat reach home.. haiz..
sianz.. all becoz.. i hav fun..
so... tat y i nd to wake up early? diaoz...
ke lian lor.. haiz,...
sianz..
summore.. todae .. upon wake up.. hear my two bro quarrelling.. sianz..
no mood.. to wake up le lor.. haiz..
then sad lor..
wake up less then 10 mins.. nd to go out..
not tat i m complaining..
but..
still.. although it is aready 11am goin on to 12nn..
but it is sundae lei...!!!!
haizyo..
arghz..
....
hmm.. lucky tmr dun nd to wake up so early.. heez..
coz.. no sch..
holi mahz..
yes can watch anime ..
i borrow frm my friend.. kelvin..
heez...
... haiz,..
i hope.. i can work without hinderance frm musical rehearsal..
i mean.. i hope there will be NO.. clashes..
coz.. i reali.. reali.. nd the money..
coz.. i got to pay bill...
my mum juz help me pay last month de bill...
worth of $200.. sianz..
kelianz..
diaoz..
m i reali too young to b independent on myself..?
i m areadi 17 le...
still young..? i dun tink so..
y cant i juz work?
y... muz.. i b treat as a kid..?
werid u may sae..
coz..
there ar ppl whu wan to b kiddos.. oways..
haiz..
i m juz over the moon..
when i know.. i m still a kid..
but i m under the world..
when i know.. i cant be a adult..
y? muz the world be such..
to torment..?
and nt to enjoy..?
why iszt wat we wan clashes wif wat we muz?
... tis tues...
rehearsal..
i tink i cant do it..
coz.. i haven find the rite charm for my lines..
haiz..
wat to do..?
sian lar...
oh.. i want to cycle sumtime tis week...
IF
i can put in sum time.. haiz..
diaoz...
y we cant enjoy? when we need to..but
we can enjoy onli we can to..
haiz....
i m not sure of wat i m sayin le.. haiz...
diaoz.. can i juz wake up.. frm tis walkin slumber..
haiz..
so blur sia.. life can b..
although i m mindfully singel... but
life still no change for me.. still so...
blur as usual.. haiz.. kelianz..
the nite is late.. coz..
i still nd to wake up tmr to watch anime...
last written in 10:18 PM
Saturday, May 21, 2005
... juz finish rehearsal...
or rather..
i juz finish..
eating hotdog meal at mos burger.. haha...
-miss ping pong - intro de.. haha
i muz reali thk her..
she made good intros.. haha..
so next time go out wif her best.. coz..
can know alot of different good choices of food..
to eat.. heez..
diaoz...
hahaha.. sianz..
coz..
i finally.. .
realized sumting..
... i mayb had aready got over.. "her"
diaoz..
dunnoe is sad case or a good ting.. but at least.. i noe..
my feelings.. will b true throughout..
haha..
sianz..
as i have mentioned in my another blog.. haha..
my feelings for "her" has gone..
coz now i realised.. she i juz a friend.. tat i wan her to b happy.. heez..
okok.. i know.. i sound like a playboi.. but..
i m not.. reali!!
haha.. heez.. diaoz..
its for me to noe.. and for u to belive.. heez...
ke lian sia..
Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain..
telling me juz wat a fool i've been
i wish tat it could go and let me cry in vain..
and let me be alone again...
the onli girl i like has mislead me..
dunnoe wat she tinks..
i hope tat all will b clear again
so i now wat to tink...
rain pls tell her that it juz ain't fair...
for her to make me blur till i'm not sure
i cant do anyting when i'm blur in my heart..
haiz..
i hope.. my heart will juz clear...
sianz..
i tink i nd a calm mind to tink wif.. haha..
heez..
mayb.. mayb..
i can juz noe whu to like..? haha
i juz wan a girl whu is cheerful, funky in her own wae..
i hav found tis girl.. but.. i dun tink we are to b more than friends.. haha
c bahz,...
till this year ends.. haha..
so for now.. byz..
and.. i m mindfully single again.. heez..
oh no.. i m late.. siaNz..
last written in 4:59 PM
Saturday, May 07, 2005
yo.. haha...
long time nv update le haha...
sorri ar.. juz buzy lar.. heez..
so no time to write blogs.. heez..
hm..
ohz.. yar.. i m here to share will u all...
i m having my mid year exam these daes.. heez..
accurately...
next week.. heez..
so i m juz sloggin my daes off.. haha..
haiz..
can u belive all the stress 1 can get..?
i meanz.. after exam ..
there is a prelim as i m an o level canditdate..
so.. it means.. i hav to study for 3 main exams...
can u belive tis..?? oh mi goddz..
heez..
i wonder y they made us sit for mid year tis year.. haiz..
waste of time is wat i tink.. hahaha..
all in all.. i tink i m "still" surviving... haha...
i juz worried tat i m juz flip out after all this is over..
due to predelay stress... ..
sianz.. i hope tat my worries are unfounded coz..
i dun wan to waste time.. as i want to enjoy myself.. after the examz..
and then go on to find a job asap.. to balance my expenses.. heex..
on a personal note.. heez..
life is juz full of uncertainz..
my "brothers!" lar..
wat lau ehz.. everydae.. 'suan' me
haiz... bulli sia..
oways.. sae bout sumtings tat mayb not goin to cum true..
i tink they dunnoe lar..
but still.. i muz tink of a wae to tell them..
coz.. otherwise..
i may juz b anger at them..
i m not anger becoz they 'suan me..
is becoz of.. the tings they sae..
they noe.. tat i like her..
but they keep on saying in a way that the gal aready accepted me..
but , of coz.. she hav not lar..
but that is not the point..
i dun mind but eventually.. the fact is goin to show.. that..
i may not b able to hav a happi endin .. and it is not as though i cant take rejection..
but.. i juz cant take false hopes..
haiz... if onli they noe.. ke lianz.. if onli..
den i m sure they wun say until liddat but..
they will still sae lar...
at least is in a more resonable wae..? i hope.. haha..
for me at least.. haha
hmm.. i juz hope..
all the best to them.. i m not anger or watever..
coz.. u all are my good friends..
my "brothers.."
heez..
so... frineds forever..
keep in contact always..
B.O.B forever.!!??
yeaH..!
kk..
i gotta slp le.. nitez...
cheers!...
ZzZzZz.... .... ... ... . . . .
last written in 12:54 AM
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8mths has passed..
i had juz finish BMT
on the 19 june i noe my actual posting..
after tat.. i will b regular le..
wondering if wat happen if i had no time for u..?
wondering if will i be send overseas.. ?
wondering on such makes me stress sometimes..
coz i dun like it if i had no time for u..
but if i kena send overseas..
i will have alot of money..
to marry u..
i tink when the times comes then sae bahx..
haha..
coz for now i wan to spend time wif u till my broadleave finishes
i luv u
si~ling