The Tower represents war, destruction, but also spiritual renewal. Plans are disrupted. Your views and ideas will change as a result.
The Tower is a card about war, a war between the structures of lies and the lightning flash of truth. The Tower stands for "false concepts and institutions that we take for real." You have been shaken up; blinded by a shocking revelation. It sometimes takes that to see a truth that one refuses to see. Or to bring down beliefs that are so well constructed. What's most important to remember is that the tearing down of this structure, however painful, makes room for something new to be built.
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Friday, October 31, 2008
i dunnoe wat to do le..
>< style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">u fucking morons.,.
r lucky tat i dun care such petty stuffs..
to me...
work is work..
if u cant understand..
then sua..
after all...
i m juz here coz..
i like doin my work...
no matter wat..
i like working..
mayb i m an workaholic,...
nevertheless..
i m happy yet unhappy at the same time..
haix..
love u is forever..
but..
pls dun keep ur feelings to urself..
if i dunnoe pls tell me..
u dun like..
ok lor..
but let me noe wat u dun like..
coz mani times i m blurblur de lor..
dar...
juz rmb..
i luv u..
and i reali reali..
want to hav a happy ending wif u..
but at this rate..
i feel...
loving u means changing me..
not saying i cant change for u..
but..
changing my likes Oo?
i like drinking..
i enjoy drinking..
so if u wan me to change my drinking habits can..
i can drink less..
but dun ..
becoz of i drink..
then anti me..
haix..
smoking is my fault..
i noe..
and i m fine wif it..
tis i will change..
drinking.. Oo?
haix..
for u ..
i will drink less..
but u cant stop me frm totally not drinking..
sry i can onli b blunt here..
coz i cant bear to tell u..
...
dunnoe y oso..
everytime infront of u..
watever u wanted ..
i can do it..
but onli i retink..
then i find it weird..
hope u r not angry if u saw tis post.. ><
muacks..
i luv u..
misses~
last written in 7:00 AM
Thursday, October 30, 2008
yupx.. i m back..
again..
though i had a dae break..
well..
tat coz i was at my love one place..
coz the next dae i needed to send her to c her doc..
for her ankle...
and no its not ok..
her ankle tat is..
coz her ankle kena step on by me..
haix...
well..
i dunnoe wat to do anymore le..
seriously..
we juz quarrel..
or rather..
cold war..
WTH..
zzzz..
i reali dunnoe wat u wan frm me le..
i didnt lie to u..
yet u r angry..
hey..
so u wanted me to lie to u iszt?
i tot u can understand..
then wat m i to u.. ?
iszt once wrong cant b forgiven?
of coz..
all tis is my fault..
coz no one aask me to drink..
i allow myself to b tempted to drink..
i m so stunned juz now..
yes ..
u r angry..
u r tired..
u dun wish to sae anymore..
fine..
its okay wif me..
but...
reali.. wat i feel juz now when u close the door
aft i sae gd nite..
is nv in my whole life yet felt frm u..
i finally noe..
benjamin koh zheng ming..
nth at all..
juz a shitty guy ..
too absorb in my own world..
my own vision of happiness..
too selfish..
sooo...
seriously...
u wan me to change rite?
ok..
np..
for u..
tay si ling..
i can change..
but hope tat u dun ask me y i suddenly change hor..
...
i hope tat in tis way i can please u..
coz ..
i love u regardless of watever i felt..
yes yes..
to me its worth it..
yet..
when / if u c tis post..
i feel tat u will tink i m bullshiiting..
coz i m a guy whu dun deserved to b trusted..
fine..
np..
i juz have to make u trust me..
nth more to sae le..
coz i noe..
for whole of tmr ..
i dun get a chance to c u..
frm 3pm i will b at scity helping..
yes u r awake le..
by tat time..
i could have meet u..
so wat..
u r not working..
i will rather u stayed at home and rest ur leg..
but i tink,..
even if i sae so..
u wun listen...
nvm
i can do nth..
xcept keep my promises for now to make u trust me..
dar...
if u reali did read tis..
i will wan u to rmb nth..
but tis ..
i love u on 121008..
i love u now..
no matter wat happen..
or wat ever i did..
u r mine..
time to go on my handphone..
and set alarm and go to slp..
benz
muackz.. gdnite swt dreams dar ~
last written in 4:29 AM
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
it been a while since i last blogged..
well..
i was not doin well at all..
was destorying myself..
in the long run..
well..
i wun admit it even u read tis..
unless u are someone..
LOL..
nv tot tat i will b able to find a girl
tat i can reali put my heart in..
sooo..
i did a dumb ting..
i tried her patience ...
i will nv admit to u de..
coz i noe ..
u wun read tis..
i belive..
coz u noe my new blog not the old one..
LOL..
i share wif her my past...
but resulting ..
i hurted her..
ALOT...
T.T
pls i noe wat i m doin..
wat i m typin here is juz my confession..
but no matter wat..
my onli defense..
is tat i dun trust u..
coz i tink i m right..
in my sixth sense..
u might b able to agrue alot of tings..
but now..
i noe everyting..
although not from ur mouth..
but i will take it tat i seen nth..
i will still wan u to tell me the truth..
pls..
i noe currently i m in no right..
but i reali dun wan to b lied to..
mayb to u all tat mayb tings of the past..
but a simple confession may stop the pain here and there
and not drag onto till the next problem..
serious..
ytd i hav no intention to fight wif u..
i reali dun wan to ..
but..
u forced me..
and now..
i noe everyting le..
i m in pain..
but..
so sad..
coz i luv u..
i juz gotta accept tat ..
haix...
now i wun sae anyting till i prove myself tat
i m trustworthy in ur eyes..
aftertat..
mayb we can hav a gd talk..
hopefully...
y...
iszt tat hard to depend on ur bf?
or u nv treat me as one Oo?
all in all..
magimee luv lollipopx33..
nth to sae more..
no wish to sae le..
i reali..
wanted u to noe..
i luv u ...
i promise i wun leave u..
i will quit smoking for us..
i will b more punctual..
one week is all i ask..
muackx...
cya all..
preparing to go disturb someone in slp..
and lastly..
welcome to my blog..
i m back..
offically...
>>.<<"
last written in 7:39 AM
[x] Unclebenz
[x] Xiaobenz
[x] 21
[x] Aries
[x] 16 april
[x] Attached 121008
laptop
handphone
Gf
own room
'basketball
'swimming
'bowling
'cycling
'roller-blading
'ice-skating
-Thomson PAP Kindergarden
-Kcpps
-Townsville Pri
-Whitley Sec(6 yrs)
-National Service (3 SIR)
8mths has passed..
i had juz finish BMT
on the 19 june i noe my actual posting..
after tat.. i will b regular le..
wondering if wat happen if i had no time for u..?
wondering if will i be send overseas.. ?
wondering on such makes me stress sometimes..
coz i dun like it if i had no time for u..
but if i kena send overseas..
i will have alot of money..
to marry u..
i tink when the times comes then sae bahx..
haha..
coz for now i wan to spend time wif u till my broadleave finishes
i luv u
si~ling