Thursday, October 30, 2008
yupx.. i m back..
again..
though i had a dae break..
well..
tat coz i was at my love one place..
coz the next dae i needed to send her to c her doc..
for her ankle...
and no its not ok..
her ankle tat is..
coz her ankle kena step on by me..
haix...
well..
i dunnoe wat to do anymore le..
seriously..
we juz quarrel..
or rather..
cold war..
WTH..
zzzz..
i reali dunnoe wat u wan frm me le..
i didnt lie to u..
yet u r angry..
hey..
so u wanted me to lie to u iszt?
i tot u can understand..
then wat m i to u.. ?
iszt once wrong cant b forgiven?
of coz..
all tis is my fault..
coz no one aask me to drink..
i allow myself to b tempted to drink..
i m so stunned juz now..
yes ..
u r angry..
u r tired..
u dun wish to sae anymore..
fine..
its okay wif me..
but...
reali.. wat i feel juz now when u close the door
aft i sae gd nite..
is nv in my whole life yet felt frm u..
i finally noe..
benjamin koh zheng ming..
nth at all..
juz a shitty guy ..
too absorb in my own world..
my own vision of happiness..
too selfish..
sooo...
seriously...
u wan me to change rite?
ok..
np..
for u..
tay si ling..
i can change..
but hope tat u dun ask me y i suddenly change hor..
...
i hope tat in tis way i can please u..
coz ..
i love u regardless of watever i felt..
yes yes..
to me its worth it..
yet..
when / if u c tis post..
i feel tat u will tink i m bullshiiting..
coz i m a guy whu dun deserved to b trusted..
fine..
np..
i juz have to make u trust me..
nth more to sae le..
coz i noe..
for whole of tmr ..
i dun get a chance to c u..
frm 3pm i will b at scity helping..
yes u r awake le..
by tat time..
i could have meet u..
so wat..
u r not working..
i will rather u stayed at home and rest ur leg..
but i tink,..
even if i sae so..
u wun listen...
nvm
i can do nth..
xcept keep my promises for now to make u trust me..
dar...
if u reali did read tis..
i will wan u to rmb nth..
but tis ..
i love u on 121008..
i love u now..
no matter wat happen..
or wat ever i did..
u r mine..
time to go on my handphone..
and set alarm and go to slp..
benz
muackz.. gdnite swt dreams dar ~
last written in 4:29 AM
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